The A Letter


Terinspirasi dari Lover’s Dictionary-nya David Levithan, gue membuat hal yang serupa. Well, at least I’m trying. Here goes, the letter of A.

 

Asphyxiation: I was fine. I was perfectly fine and … bored. And there you were. Smiling.

Accepted: I smiled. After a long time. I smiled. A very big one. And I’m certain, my smile reached my eyes. I smiled.

Anatomy: The curves of your shy smile. It’s like an arrow, pierced through every atom in my body.

Anxiety: The uneasy feeling in my stomach thinking about how great you are and how I might not be good enough for you.

Abduction: Just do what you have to do. Just do what you want to do. I surrender. I am a fool. I am willingly fall for you.

Ambush: I hope you didn’t notice how my cheeks slowly turned red and how I slowly looked away when you said I’m the only one.

Acknowledgement: It was a sunny day in the park. We counted the swans in the river nearby. And then our fingers intertwined.

Amidst: Instead of going to the club, can we hold hand while strolling in the park under the pale moonlight? I promise I won’t be boring.

Accidentally: I don’t know how love happens. I don’t know how we collide. I don’t intend to find out. You’re here. You’re here.

Affected: You have become my shadow. And me to you. You, are my silver shadow. And me to you. I hope you don’t mind.

Awesome: I catch a cold after you told me to walk in the rain and we did, barefooted. Now, am I qualified to adore you more?

Adore: The way you hold my hand and squeezed it softly and how it made me smile while we talk about nothing; just sat in silence.

Anomaly: It’s true that birds of the same feather flock together. You and me, we are the weird birds.

Anchor: I love how you always remind me that I could do great things. I love how you pull me down each time I get too cocky.

Applause: If you look down, you will see the sea of clouds. If you look at me, you will see the sea of adrenaline. Hello, you.

 

Amazing: The electricity of your touch, the sparks from your eyes, the warmth of your voice. The zero gravity when we kissed.

Awkward: Now you know I am not a great kisser. But I’m not sorry for the laugh after.

Aphrodisiac: Let’s skip the dessert. I could smell the pheromone raging inside you. Inside me. Burst into flame of endorphins.

Arouse: When we touched I burst into flame. I am a phoenix yearning to fly but my wings are clipped. Heal me. Heal me now.

Ally: You and me versus the world. I feel like I could do anything. I am invincible. We are infinite.

Alter-ego: I am never somebody else when I’m with you. I become the better version of me, so when I say please don’t leave, stay.

Amen: We don’t believe in the same God. Yet we believe in the same universe. Our universe. And that’s enough.

Always: You said the word that made me cry when we watched Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 2 when I asked you: do you love me?

Accuse: I’m guilty. I’m dirty. I confess. I’m a sinner. I can’t help it. I love you. I can’t help it. Don’t give me that look.

 

Awake: Where were you when I needed you the most? There are millions of dragons, inside my stomach, longing for you.

Asunder: So close yet so far. Stop staring at your crystal clear phone screen and please look at me. I am dull but I am here. Please?

Air: My jealousy is so sour it burns through my soul. My jealousy is so thick I can’t tear it apart. I’m gasping. I’m gasping.

Asshole: You’re the one who really understands me. You’re the one I wanna be with. You’re the one I couldn’t be with. Get rid of her.

Anger: Things I shouldn’t have said. Things you shouldn’t have said. But we said them anyway. Regret is nasty.

Arson: I’m sorry I can’t help myself. She lost her house and she still has you. This is unacceptable.

Anvil: Someone you care so much crying helplessly and you just stood there; hating yourself knowing there’s nothing you can do.

Ache: You don’t love me anymore even though you just told me you love me. Please. Stop the lie.

Again: Love me like the way you used to.

Adolescent: We will stay this way. We will keep fighting. Arguing. Just like Peter Pan and Capt. Hook. Please say yes.

Afterlife: Let’s be together again. What say you?

 

Absence: I remember the day when you gave me the orange balloon. It was a clear day with blue sky. The balloon floated away. With you.

Aftermath: The echo of our goodbyes still rings loudly inside my brain. If only we could undo the bitterness, would it make any difference?

Abandon: One of the day when you’re in the crowd and loneliness suddenly wash you away and you can only stare into nothingness.

Asleep: The fortress of solitude I built a long time ago was torn apart, shattered to pieces when we meet again. Hello, nightmare.

Addiction: Tell me how to erase you. Because I’m laying alone. Hopeless.

Affection: If I can never erase you, please stop haunting me. At least give me a space to breathe. I wanna be me with me without you.

Aurora: Have you ever cried because you saw something, someone, that’s so beautiful yet completely out of your reach? Why did you leave?

Agony: I realise you won’t be drinking the camomile tea I made you every morning anymore. Yet I keep on doing it.

Adamant: No. I can’t let you go just yet. No, I won’t give up on us. No, you don’t tell me to move-on from you. Stop doing it.

Annoying: I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I will repeat this sentence every 30 seconds until you come back to me.

Analogy: Hey you. How to unlove you? I tried. I failed. I tried. I failed. I am Sisyphus. Punished for eternity. Help.

 

Aeon: how long is forever? I refuse to believe that forever is a lie. I refuse to accept that forever is broken. Now, time stands still.


21 responses to “The A Letter”

  1. Assault: the feeling of not wanting to stop reading this blog. Late to sleep, late for weak up are a lil causes

    Suka :)

    • Apology: I hope you didn’t wake up with panda eyes, Because, panda eyes are only cute on panda, not you. Maybe, there’s an exception for you. :p

  2. I almost cried while i read it. I didnt cry because im in the bus. But lex, some of them are describing my feeling right now. Thanks lex for making this:)

  3. astound: every time you write, it was as if a world has began anew. your words stuns me, mesmerize me, left me wondering how can a mind so eloquent, so beautiful, still have a shred of doubt over their capability?

  4. Amnesia: I refuse to remember. It was easier for me to pretend it was me being clumsy and let my guards down. Vulnerable target you soon forget.

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